I juz LOVE! nothing more...

ups?? hot topic uh?
nope... actually maybe this is a boring one...

When we talk about love... we only want to give and do the best. and the only key, of course... resignation.
When we talk about love... we only want to enjoy the good feel. and the only sign is... comfortable.
When we talk about love... there's no way for suffer. becoz we talk about sacrifice... learning... and growing
When we talk about love... we also talk about God. because God loves us with the most beautifull way that we couldn't imagine. why didn't we love God also? I dont speak about unrealistic things, but the love that we give for God can be very realistic. Love your environment... your friends... your family.. your job.. your body.. and everything around.

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serius amat yak??? xixixixi... no no.. kadang2 orang bisa bicara serius setelah bersantai terlalu lama. atau bisa jadi kebanyakan bercanda sebagai kompensasi dari keseriusan yang menjenuhkan.
Kenapa tiba2 ngomongin cinta? basi ah! hhehe... bukan maksud hati sok romantis. tapi emang kontemplasi yg kulakukan tidak menghasilkan kesimpulan lain, selain : LOVE. CINTA. Aku hanya ingin mencinta kok. apa itu salah?
Silahkan orang lain mengernyit atas apa yang kulakukan dan yang kuputuskan. SO WHAT? THEY EVEN DONT KNOW ME!!!
jangan melulu mengaitkan kata2 cinta dengan hubungan sepasang kekasih berlawanan jenis (meskipun, kuakui, itu tuh yg paling ngetrend deh yaaaa kayaknyaaaa... people relate 'love' mostly on it) karena aku mengartikan cinta sebagai bentukan pengorbanan yang tanpa pamrih, tapi menyenangkan. eits.. SIAPA BILANG CINTA ITU BUTA? berkorban tanpa pamrih juga klo buta berarti tidak menyenangkan. dan klo menyenangkan saja tapi berkorbannya dengan pamrih itu namanya BUTUH! mungkin terlalu idealis bicara ttg sesuatu yg tanpa pamrih. well.. I admitt also, ORANG BODOH MANA YANG MAU SEPERTI ITU??? tapi kembali lagi ke pengorbanan.
pamrih itu wilayah kekuasaan Tuhan.
hasil dari segala sesuatu yang kita lakukan itu sudah ada yang mengatur.
Manusia cuma bisa berusaha kan? why didn't we DO MORE but EXPECT LESS? I believe that God love us. God love me that God wouldn't make me loose if we have do the best. at least, the process itself give a learning. and it's worth!!

dah ah.. pulang. kos'an mo tutup. ai ai ai... I start to love this city. I start to love my life here.. my job.. my friends...

I love you also!

see?? i'm still asking and testing

and this is the result...

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines. You should major in: MarketingPsychologyDesginCognitive Science EconomicsPhotography

What Should You Major In?

no... it's actually NOT ABOUT THE RESULT but WHY I A STILL TEST IT.
admit it.
i am still asking for the rite job that suit me.
cincai cincai,,,

a complete set of teacher and friend

well.. this is only analogy.. let's play!!!

waktu sekolah dulu, ato kuliah.. banyak guru yang ganti2an kasih catetan, kasih tugas, lalu kasih ujian. Aku sadar harus nyatet, harus ngerjain tugas, atopun belajar buat ujian.
Sekarang..
di tempat baru.. guru2nya pun baru. dan kewajibanku tetep sama.
tapi sekarang beda.
at least dulu aku punya 1 set guru dan 10 set temen.
untuk guru matematik, aku punya temen yg jago matematik untukku bertanya
untuk guru fisika, ada temen yg bs langsung didatengin n solving soal2 fisika itu.
untuk guru olahraga, well.. tinggal panggil temenku yg jago basket n kita latian deh bareng2.

Sekarang.. saat tugas dari guru2 itu mentok, aku cm bisa mikir sendiri.
saat ada ujian, aku ga bisa minta tentir dari temen2 yg ahli.
n aku berkutat jg sendirian.

HELLOOO THERE??? CAN I ASK FOR FRIEND TO BE A SHARING PARTNER????
cape mikirin smua ini sendirian..

I LOVE SUNDAY...

well...it's new thing for me

I never love sunday before..
my old sunday was ussually full of schedules. this and that, and those.. arrghh!!! yea... coz last time I spent my days as student who was doing thesis, so day by day was quite relaxing at room.. and in the weekend I stopped it, and arranged meeting with friends.
and now..
I really apreciate sunday.
I can have rest..
do things other office work..
and get refreshment!!

I've been living here for one month dude!
Get lotta learning. and yes!! I MUST LEARN!
Honestly.. it sumtimes make me crazy. I'm tired of thesee!! but the process is going, on and on and on..... The office learning, the daily life learning, the new friends' learning, the relationship learning, pfuh..
Thanks God never stop me to learn coz i consider it to be worth
need kinda contemplation juz to keep me walk on the right path.

the question is.. Have the slogan 'I HATE MONDAY' been mine????
ups...
I hope not laaaaaaa

KUtu LoncAT????

Here I am now... small city..
(it's really CITY! and Indonesia is not a beautifull city!! hwakakaka.. Nadine.. nadine.. how can u be that fool? upss.. sorry.. nervous only maybe. calm down.. everybody can make mistakes too.. so do I laaaa...)

Cikarang is quite nice. at least to conquer wilayah segitu doank ga sesusah jakarta lah ya
My new office quite comfortable. full of humour... and the people is not that formal. even in friday, we are allowed to wear jeans and shirt. HOW GREAT!
maybe i'm gonna set that day as 'friday stylish dress' then. xixixixi...

Missing my old times sumtimes...

but then, at least I've make 1 year commitment here. I have to accomplish!
tapi napa org HR jd ngomong macem ntu yak?
i'm not going to be 'kutu loncat' anyway. Kalo kita terus cari yang paling baik, gak bakalan ada habisnya Man! manusia gak bakalan pernah habis keinginan!
Apa sih yang kita kejar dalam hidup ini?
simple for me.BAHAGIA.
dan apakah kebahagiaan itu terkandung dalam semua keinginan2 kita?
we have to choose, and then take it as a whole! conquer it, and then find the learning, the good thing, and the final happiness.
and I call it 'the way love works'

sumtimes org bisa jadi sangat serakah. gak pernah puas..
kutu loncat itu keadaan.. bukan keinginan..

LIfe is a choice...

this is what my Dad's sayin...
"Analoginya ya... kamu itu udah akad nikah.. ada cowok laen mo nglamar. YA GAK MUNGKIN DITRIMA TOHH!!! Itu goda'an... akhirnya tetep harus memilih satu.. dan ya emang harusnya satu!!!"
I said : "Huh... jadi malah bingung ya kalo harus milih..
Dad : "Yang enak itu.. kalo tawaran nya cuman satu. pilihannya cuman satu. keputusanmu cuman satu. analoginya ya.. pacar satu, dan suamimu ya satu tho ndukkk... :D"
I said : " Yea.. life has been complicated. we must simplify it.."
Dad : "juz like your mother when she was choosing me"
*gubrakzz*
hwakakakakaka
I like doing this analogical things with my Dad...
and this time must be worth enough, coz maybe it would be very difficult for us to have a talk n go joking together. well... I have to grow anyway...
aahh... Cikarang.. here I come!!!

another talking.., when we were talking bout someone that fail to achieve what he want...
" Seharusnya jangan pernah menutup pintu untuk segala kemungkinan yang terjadi. just be open! kita tidak pernah tau kemana nasib membawa kita. justru pada saat kita mulai menutup, kita sedang menutup pintu nasib yang akan mengantarkan pada berbagai keberuntungan dan hikmah"
and I juz manggut manggut... :D

aaahh.. i'm gonna mizz him.. gonna mizz this town..
looking backward... i'm gonna mizz all my friend in jogja...

back to the topic.. CHOOSING!
well.. i juz feeling a lil sorry.. why do all this choices come together? justru pada saat lagi desperate2nya dan hampir bunuh diri (xixixi... sok hiperbolis) gak ada yang nawarin??????!!! besok musti ngadepin PT KG yg minta jawaban kepastian. huh.. sudahlah... gimana cara nolak yg halus dan terhormat? I was remembering time when i strugle to enter KG. and now... rejection process... that's annoying anyway...

Love SUNSET

What have made it so special about?

Sunset means.. much for me..
beach is very wild.. very wide.
and that is life exactly would be..
but behind any disaster...
the sun will set in the west
and every bad things will set too..

thanks God i'm alive...